Have been so long that i didnt update anything, because i am using dial up connection, so is quite slow to get in the traffic (i can't even get in to my own blog!!) Thanks for everyone whom has dropped a word or few to my feedback, you guys' encouragements and cares are greatly appreciated. Thanks alot. Seriously right now i am fine, don't worry. Things are going quite well at this moment, hope things will continue to be fine in our relationship. I am quite bored at home, so online for awhile while bel went to work now. Try to find something to do when bel go to work, like meet out with friends, otherwise i will become v bored. Last night finally i have registered the most famous online game-Ragnarok. Thanks to yanchyuan and all his guiding at cyber cafe last night. (plus fetching me back home and bring me around to KTM and sungei wang etc..hehehe thanks!) At first i thought that game is not something interesting, however it catched my attention and interest to have a try. In the end, i found out that the online game is quite good and really i am abit addicted to it...

Somethings just on and off bothering me actually. At first really make me quite worried, but at the end became alight, but now seems to have that again...I know no point to worry so much, i think i will just leave everything to God, i believe He will take care of it. I believe right now what i am going through is my trial, may be God want me to become a stronger person, may be God want to mould me into a better person, capable for something. Don't know whether is it all my faults or may be is really my own problems. Just miss her so much sometimes, don;t really want to do anything, but just 'daydream" of her, day dream of being together with her. May be that's long distance relationship. Seeing each other is great, but i think the most important thing is placing her in my heart when we are not physically together. Don't know why, feeling of losing her will come sometimes, that make me very uneasy. May be i just think too much sometimes. AFter i see her this time around, i will only see her one year later. Can i still able to withstand the feeling of missing her without doing anything that is stupid and unworthy? Are we still loveing each other as much as before? Guess i need to change myself, not to be so pitty, not to be so demanding, need to be more understanding, need to put more of myself in her shoes, need to be more perservere with things etc..but how??..i have come to the stage whereby i can't change them by using my own strength, i think i need God to help me... Again love is sacrificing for someone, love is giving it out without expecting something to return back to you, love is unconditional, love is the greatest commandment...

So..in the end, my friend she didnt win in the Miss Chinese International Pageant 2004 ,but good to hear that she got into top5, but not the top 3...heading up to ipoh next Fri, bus ticket also bought already.

Well, somepeople might recongnise her...yes, she is my friend, vivian...Now she is in HK, she is going to participate for Miss chinese international pageant 2004, hope she can win some title lor...other than that, will support her always and hope to see her back in malaysia soon...

This is the last week i am staying in Hk, going back to Singapore soon. These two days i will back staying at my cousins house. Watch Lord of the ring 3 few days ago. I feel it is still quite a nice movie, those who watch part one and two, must watch part 3. Still some people mightsay it is not good, all those stuffs. However to me, i think it is still quite good. These few days, unpleasant things happen to me, hope all these things will go on smoothly.

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